I don't know if there's someone in this world that deserves to die for, to fight for. Because at a certain point, everyone disapoints you. I wish it wouldn't be true.. but it is.
How did our lives drift so far apart? And how, without even trying, did we make our lives so complicated? I mean, I know I didn't . I know happiness doesn't come cheap, because, if it did, we would all be smiling. But, seriously, how much time do I have to survive in this world full of disapointments , for finaly get what I always wanted ? What I always needed. You think it's okay to be a little miserable every now and then...even when you have great things in your life ? I feel that way tonight, having a lot of great things in my life, but I just don't feel like I'm complete. I want to find that thing, or that person that deserves me to die for. I wanna feel that ache in the stomach, that you feel everytime you're doing something crazy. I wanna feel that everyday.
It's easy to have all the answers from a distance, but everybody makes decisions they regret. Some people doesn't understand this. I regret some things I've done, and I know it won't change anything of what happened , but I hoped it would change what comes. It just doesn't seem the same for some people.
But I guess it’s always been that way. Wanting to be loved, to find somebody that makes your heart ache in a good way.. without even knowing, maybe we idealized love . Maybe our expectations are too high. Or maybe just my expectations.
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